To my College Love.
This is why.
Well, I’m reserving you for the future. Because I can’t imagine losing you just because I’m still immature, we’re still too young, and you still don’t know what you want in life. I’ve always loved you. And I hope you know that. Because I’ve loved you the way I understand love and somehow, I felt loved even without hearing those three words from you.
But I’m gonna have to wait. As much as I would like to be with you as soon as possible. I’m gonna have to think long-term. You’re the one I want to be with forever. And we both know that if we get into a relationship right now, somehow, our chance of making it together forever will diminish. And that would be worse than not being able to have you now.
And though I know it’s gonna be me and you in the end, I try to think we shouldn’t rush things. Not because I don’t want to be with you, but because I know that this is the right thing for us. And yes, when I’m talking about US here, that’s something I just can’t afford to mess up with. I’m doing this one step at a time, just to have you for the rest of my life.
And believe me, it’s not easy. You’re not making it any easier for me, too. Because every single time I see you, I realize that it’s definitely YOU that I want to spend the rest of my life with. And when we’re together, I know that I’m at my best. And I just wanna start spending the first day of my forever with you right away.
But I’ve got to think of what I really want. Would I really want to have you now and lose that chance of having you forever? Or am I willing to wait for a few years to have you for the rest of my life? I’m sure you know what I’ll choose. Well, what I’ve already chosen.
I will wait. Though I can’t wait to spend every single day with you, to call you babe or honey or psst, and share my life with you, I will wait. Though I can’t wait to kiss you goodnight, argue with you about relationship stuff, or cook for you, I will wait. Though I can’t wait to be your girl, to hold you in my arms, to hold your coffee while you drive, or to just cuddle you all day, I will wait. I will patiently wait for the right time, with nothing to hold on to, but the mere thought that all this waiting is the only way to keep you forever.
So just imagine how much I love you. Imagine how you’ve turned this immature little girl who’s always been used to getting things her way, right away, to this mature being who has chosen to wait for the right time, and suffer for the meantime, just to keep you, the guy she loves, forever.
And I’ve always believed in us. I’ve always believed that after college, after we learn from our mistakes by loving other people, which we know won’t last, we’ll be realizing even more how much we are meant to be. And believe me, we will.
Yes, I can wait for the meantime. If waiting for the meantime means keeping you for the rest of my life.
The girl who never said those three words but has always loved you, nonetheless.
(found this posted on Nica’s Facebook)
It's so sweet. ♥ (sort of the story of my life as well. Hihi. It kinda is. ;-) written beautifully by someone else. Hmmm, biography. :)) )